The house is telling you to close your eyes.

So this week has been crazy, beautiful and exhausting. Finals are over, I would wake up and fall asleep studying. No lie. I have awesome grades though, which warms up my dear little heart. Lets say my last semester grades were less than stunning. I've been spending every waking moment with my Canadian prince. He left this morning to the great white north at 6 am, shortly after we embarked into the frigid cold for a phony lunar eclipse. I couldn't fall asleep again until 9. Partly due to the fact that I hadn't thawed, and partly due to the fact that I was missing my significant other. I spent the day with my lovely nieces and sister-in-law, averting a family crisis. Nonetheless, today was very fulfilling. Although I came home to an empty house, I also came home to an adorable text from love stating "I wish I was laying beside you, I can't fall asleep." Brent is a royal emotional black hole most of the time, so this was nothing short of miraculous. Not to mention his lovely text this morning saying "Just thinking about you, and how much I am going to miss you!" Just thought I would share with you all my overwhelming joy. To expound on my disgustingly happy demeanor I am listening to my ABBA record as we speak. Oh, and the only present under my tree so happens to be a Peter, Paul & Mary record, as well as Jefferson Starship. Splendid. Well, just in case you guys haven't barfed rainbows from all the love and happiness here are some freakin' cute pictures.

Everything is illuminated.

I love that quote. Oh, how my mind wanders. 

I don't blog often, probably because I am too frackin' busy. 

Here are some highlights of my life as of lately. 

1. Ogden is stunning, the mountains are hues of red, yellow, green, and everything is teeming with life. I love autumn.

2. Preparation for Brents birthday has commenced. T-minus 10 days until his birthday extravaganza. 

3. Fall wardrobe is my favorite. Bring on the blazers, infinity scarves and boots. 

4. I discovered how to make butterbeer. It is delightful. Especially complimented with some homemade pumpkin choco chip cookies.

4. I am back into crafting, it has been far too long. My days are filled with canvases, DIY scarves, lanterns and glassifying everything that I deem worthy.

5. New friends, old faces. I love everyone that I am surrounded by. I feel so comforted and loved.

6. This song.

Lust for life.

I think this past week/weekend has been beyond beautiful. I don't think there is ever a moment where I can say life cant get any better, or worse than this. Life will always surprise you.

I find beauty in everything, the happy, the sad. Because they constantly remind me that I am alive.

Here are some of the incredible things I did this week.

1. Stargazed with Brent along the side of the lake.

2. Had tea with Ariel at the Vintage tea room. So adorable. I ate the most delicious brownie I have ever consumed in my life.

3. Studied my butt off. I know, why this good is beside me. It made me feel accomplished. Not to mention I did awesome on all of my tests, so in hindsight, studying was infact, incredible.

4. Went to a Weber State hockey game. We lost, miserably, but it was pretty amusing to watch with my Canadian buds. 

Canadians are nuts.

5. My mommy came, and Saturday night she took Brent and myself to dinner, and the movie 50/50. Which, might I add, was beyond fantastically incredibly amazing.

6. Sunday Brent invited me to his place, made me dinner, and we played ping-pong. He was being a total Casanova. He also invited me to go visit his family in November, and stay with them for a few weeks during Christmas break. Looks like I am Alberta bound, once again. Or twice again, I 'spose.

7. I found this quote that I absolutely adore.

“I missed you even when I was with you. That’s been my problem. I miss what I already have, and I surround myself with things that are missing.”


Here are some photos of my lovely week.

Beautiful blue skies.

Tea time. Nutella banana, and chicken artichoke sandwiches. Divine.

My hair is finally growing! Good thing I just bought some mane n' tales.

Neato, distorted picture of Elizabeth hall.

Lovely flowers. Oh, do I love flowers!

Creepy eye found a midst the Indian wreckage formerly known as a school/hospital. It is for shiz haunted.

And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.

I am just terrible at blogging. Truly awful. Sometimes my life goes by faster than my mind can process. Every day is so beyond beautiful. I think 19 is the golden age, honestly. I love being on my own. I miss my parents, but I find solace in knowing that in moments of sadness I can pour strength back into my self. I also read my mothers letter often, which also brings me comfort. I think the most beautiful thing she said to me is: "You stick out in a field of wildflowers." I think there is no greater thing than the love of a mother. Anyways. I have had wedding fever lately. Perhaps it is all of the engagements. 

My dress will look something like this.

My bridesmades dresses will be teal, and my bouquet will have various wildflowers with fuchsia, yellow, purple, white, etc. colored flowers. There will be doily lamps, mason jars, and teal chevron place mats. You will see someday, you are all invited to my future wedding. 


Lately I have been really into this neato editing program. Everyone seems to think they are a photographer these days, so I hopped on that bandwagon.

That is how I spend my sunday afternoons.

Also, I spend them doing this.

Reading. Writing. Studying.

That has become my life.

Love and some verses.

I love that.

So life is good. I have a great job all the free Jamba my heart desires, great friends particularly my canadians Brent and Levi, School is going well life sciences up the wahoo, not to mention my two hour drawing class, and I love my roommates Ashley, Ariel, Karrah.

Thursday we went to free Lupe, friday we went to the block party and foam party, yesterday I worked a 9 hour shift and ended the night with my best friends and

today we dined like kings and queens. I spent a good portion of the day making roast beef for Air, Brent and Levi. It was divine.

"I don't think there are any limits to how excellent we can make life seem."

The Living Years.

Alas, I am too lazy to upload pictures so here is another picture-less post. Perhaps I will spice it up with a little bit of helvetica. 


So, since I have moved life has been great. It is strange to think that working 9-5 every day, coming home and mowing down on french bread and reeces ice cream wouldn't be much fun, but I am living the good life. Being an adult is better than I imagined. 


I don't like helvetica. Anyways, its almost as if I worked out all of the kinks from my freshman year, and now I am living the high life. There is nothing greater than to feel proud and accomplished at the end of the day. Unlimited Jamba Juice doesn't hurt either. 


Lets try the trebectuetechsheh or whatever this font is. Geez, who comes up with font names anyways? OKAY MOVING ON. I guess the biggest thing I have learned is that you need to learn to be happy on your own. I have friends alright, I just can't see them every second of every day, so I fill all of those empty moments with a little bit of me time. I love me time. My life seems to be filling back up with the people I love. My old Eden friends are popping back up, my canadian friend Levi is here, Ariel is coming up on thursday, and Brent is coming thursday as well. I think its going to be a great year. 


Back to good ol' courier. Hey, I love Jonathan Safran Foer, and so here are some of his quotes. You'll love him too. You know what? I can't possibly fit his greatness into one post. He will make appearances in several posts from this moment forward. Enjoy.


"My life story is the story of everyone I've ever met." 


Good grief, I love that so much. Everyone has made me who I am. I was telling my friend Caleb the other day that the people we know fill up spaces in our minds. Like when a place, or a thing reminds you of something, that piece of your brain will always be filled with that person. That way, we can always carry them with us.


"It's true, I am afraid of dying. I am afraid of the world moving forward without me, of my absence going unnoticed, or worse, being some natural force propelling life on. Is it selfish? Am I such a bad person for dreaming of a world that ends when I do? I don't mean the world ending with respect to me, but every set of eyes closing with mine." 


I think about this all the time. Is it weird? Yeah it is, I'm weird. Whatever. I think about life after death. You know, that saying by the Beatles "Life goes on within you and without you" I wonder how people would respond. I wonder if people would miss me. I wonder if people would regret the things they said or did, regret not saying "I love you," one last time. I make sure to tell people how amazing they are, or how much I love them. Even if they don't always say it back. Life is alot more fragile than we think. Don't ever wait until someone is gone to realize how important they are to you.


"When I was a girl, my life was music that was always getting louder.
Everything moved me. A dog following a stranger. That made me feel so much. A calendar that showed the wrong month. I could have cried over it. I did. Where the smoke from a chimney ended. How an overturned bottle rested at the edge of a table.
I spent my life learning to feel less.
Every day I felt less.
Is that growing old? Or is it something worse?
You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness." 


Maybe growing up is bad. I wish I were a child again. When everything moved me. I guess as an adult, it takes an extra hard push to move you. 


Thats enough for tonight. Happy wednesday.

Walking on a Dream

Okay, so alot of things have happened since my last post, so I am going to make everything short and sweet.

1. Last week I hiked the Narrows with my dad, his friend, and my bud Caleb. 15 miles hiking on the equivelent of greased bowling balls. I found out I am a fantastic mulit-tasker, be it shuffling down the side of a mountain to party rock while eating beef jerky and caramel (Ew) or changing my clothes while driving with my knees and eating a sub sandwich. Honestly, I don't know how I am still alive. Regardless, it was a beautiful experience.

2. Said goodbye to my wonderful friends. We went late night camping at pine valley, and threw Shay a lovely birthday party. I am going to miss them so much. Also, I my last goodbye was with the person I needed to see the most. The exact same person to see me off to college last year. I knew I wouldn't be able to leave without seeing him one last time. Love does funny things to you, even after a year has past. 

3. Moved back home. I moved back to Ogden thursday morning, just in time to rush over to Bright Eyes with my friend Joey. Conor Oberst is now, and forever my idol. My life motto "I really just want to be a warm yellow light that pours over everyone I love." comes from him. He is a demi-god in my eyes. So that was nothing short of fantastic.

4. Working at my new job. I am lucky enough to work on Weber States campus at the Jamba Juice. The hours have been grueling though, today and yesterday I have worked 9-5, and I work the same shifts tomorrow, monday, wednesday. Wouldn't be so bad if it was tedious training. Can't wait to start testing smoothies :) I love being home, taking care of my cute little house, having responsibilities, and I look forward to seeing my Canadian friends again. You know, life is just pretty great.

I am sorry, this was neither short nor sweet. 

The End of Summer Song.

Despite all the things that seemingly should make me sad, I am happy as a bird. Chipper as can be. You know, hard times make you stronger, and strength brings me happiness. My friends make me happy, work makes me happy, art makes me happy, love makes me happy, being on my own makes me happy, new adventures make me happy, sunshine makes me happy, crying makes me happy, my dogs make me happy, new phones make me happy, family makes me happy, school makes me happy, music makes me happy.

 Life makes me happy happy happy.

That dress makes me happy.

Oh, and I am beyond overjoyed that the Red Hot Chili Peppers are coming out with a new album. I have been waiting since Summer '06 for this moment. They have the greatest new song. Of course they do, they are the chili's after all. The sweet sounds of the chili's will be the greatest pleasure your ears will ever experience. Bar none.  

Next week I am moving back to Ogden, and I am excited. I have a job on campus, which is peachy. I am going to miss everyone. I guess it really hit me that everyone is gone. I just want high school back, when we were all together. 

I guess it didn't really hit me until I realized the one of the most important people I have had in my life is about to leave, and we don't even speak. You know, that makes me sadder than any print could ever resonate. But his memory brings me happiness, and his happiness is worth it, and I know that love doesn't disappear. Love won't disappear in two years, or ten. I want the memory of me to start bringing him happiness again. I'll find a way to see him one last time before I leave.

Oh, and funny story, I like country music now. Weird.

But I like these songs much better:

1. When We Swam- Thao with the Get Down and Stay Down

2. Go Do- Jonsi

3. Moneygrabber- Fitz & The Tantrums

Blister in the sun.

I figured out a new way to edit my pictures, and now I am in love.

I would have put captions under each picture, but I am both equal parts lazy and obsessive compulsive. If one picture had a caption, all pictures would need one. And we all know I am not that ambitious. Regardless, this is a good compilation of my summer, and.. some from spring break. We'll just say these are pictures from some pretty monumental moments this year.

SO many things to look forward to. Weber awaits, and I am chomping at the bit. Its time for a fresh start! :)